I know this is a long time coming. The fact that I haven’t posted in a couple of weeks is a surprise to me, so as a “what’s so” this is where things are:
So far everything is on schedule. Next week I start chemo as an outpatient and I am hopeful that my body tolerates the treatments well.
I’ve been trying to get work done and I must admit it’s hard, mentally and physically. It’s a challenge though… I do notice that I have a say in the matter. I’ve managed to will myself and shift to higher energy moods, but still it’s hard to sustain the consistency.
I mentioned in the beginning that I need to accept what I am willing to push my mind and body through or just surrender to what is (probably the wiser choice.) I do know things are different and I am still finding out about what this process is going to be like. I get scared of the unknown. Sometimes just simply not feeling well alters my mood.
I’m grateful for the love and support I’ve been receiving and it’s really helped me along. So for now just wanted to quickly check in, let you know I’m dealin’… No more hair on my head and I’ll be in touch more often.